Winter in Korea

I completed my first day of physical therapy this afternoon and wow, lemme tell you. I'd forgotten what it felt like to stand up and not be in pain, or to be able to walk without being in extreme discomfort. It only lasted a bit, obviously one session of ultrasound and shockwave therapy isn't going to undo 6 months of pain but it helped significantly. The good news is my insurance covers it, so gg school you didn't get to escape this one. The xray tech was really nice yesterday during my consultation, but he was really embarrassed about the whole process. Tech: Your underwear. Do you have metal? Me: Yes, there's metal in my bra. Tech: Please take it off. Me, reaching up to take my coat off: Okay, my pants have metal too. Tech, panicking: Oh, metal? Please... uhh, please here. Remove here. -he begins frantically looking around for a gown and bag for my clothes- Tech: Please, here, okay? Remove, please. I'll.. wait. Outside. Okay? -proceeds to r...

I think I needed a complete reset in life and I was able to do it by just vanishing from everything and hiding under a rock somewhere. I'm back (yet again) and I'm determined to keep blogging and maybe vlogging soon. My classes have improved a lot, I've had 3 open classes in the last month and have another coming up soon. I've gotten fantastic feedback from everyone that's been watching me teach and for some reason we my CoT and lil ole me, were picked to be a representative of some type for an open class? Still fuzzy on those details but there were a lot of cameras and twice as many people there. Unfortunately my grandfather did pass over Chuseok so that's been a bit hard to cope with. With Thanksgiving and Christmas coming up it's going to be difficult all around, but I'm sure that I can handle things in a better way now. I'm excited to keep seeing more of Korea because... My contract was extended! Winter , you say, why would you extend...

I'm back and better than ever. I took time off of a lot of things, this blog included. I know I said it before, but I got back into old hobbies and I'm enjoying myself. The break for camp and going back home was a good refresh for me and it really got my head back on straight. It was a sad trip, my grandpa is on hospice and most likely won't make it until Christmas, so this was my final goodbye. I tried to tell him how much he meant to me but he's too gone to really understand who I am anymore. But the other night I had a dream where he and I sat together, the old him, and we talked about how much we meant to each other, that we loved each other, and how we both didn't want it to end. It felt like the closest form of closure I'm gonna get. It truly felt real and it helped a lot. I got to see my cats and my dogs, got to hang out with friends and family and eat way too much food. I got new clothes, new shoes, and a new viewpoint on my situatio...

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know how to tell anyone at my school that I'm so miserable I've had a mental breakdown after 4 months. I don't know how to tell them that the kids are so misbehaved it gave me a stomach ulcer. I don't know how to tell them that the way they treat their Special Needs kids makes me nauseated. I don't know how to tell them that if I didn't have kittens that needed me to survive, I would have left. I don't know what to say because I know they don't listen to me anyway. Reporting what happened before just made it worse and nobody really did anything or helped. I went right to my PoE and saw nothing of it. I'm pretty sure they don't want to deal with me since I dropped out of the super important project we had to do. I didn't know how to tell them it was because the school didn't help me even when I needed it and it was an impossible task to have done with my situation. I have no...

I've just been swamped. My schedule at work got switched completely around, which I'm really happy for, so I've been trying to finish up all of my old after school paperwork in preparation for the new stuff. I've also been cleaning the hell out of my apartment and trying to make plans with some friends for this week, as well as trying to buy a ticket back home for vacation. It's been super crazy and busy and this was the last thing on my list, so I'm sorry if I worried anyone with my sudden vanishing. My back still aches but I should be good soon, maybe I'll get a massage soon and see if that helps. The kittens are doing well and learning more every day, Holgate keeps missing the litter-box and running his pee pee paws all over the apartment so that's been a 3x a day cleaning task added to my schedule haha. Well, either way I'll be back soon once I get into the swing of things again. Hope everyone is doing well, both posters and my sile...

Did I mention this is a cat post?

Strike at the top because shit rolls downhill. Get ready for the world's longest post talking about what's gone on the last week. Monday - Got hit. Told the MT, she just ended up defending him and acted like it wasn't really a big deal. Tuesday - Holiday. Lamented my nonworking back but just downed painkillers and did fuck all. Wednesday - MT came in for all of about 2 minutes and talked to the kid who hit me. He said he didn't hit me, she believed him and left. I had to go to her after school and show her the bruise on my back, she still defended him and spoke for him. She tried to tell me not to go to the hospital and go to the school nurse instead. That night I couldn't lift my leg more than 2 or 3 inches off the ground, I knew I had to get help. Thursday - Woke up super early and went to the hospital as soon as it opened. No fracture, but had a spinal injury. Given 2 weeks bed rest and a ton of medication. Apparently I also have an ulcer. Didn't ha...