Boom, Baby


I'm back and better than ever.

I took time off of a lot of things, this blog included. I know I said it before, but I got back into old hobbies and I'm enjoying myself.

The break for camp and going back home was a good refresh for me and it really got my head back on straight.

It was a sad trip, my grandpa is on hospice and most likely won't make it until Christmas, so this was my final goodbye. I tried to tell him how much he meant to me but he's too gone to really understand who I am anymore. But the other night I had a dream where he and I sat together, the old him, and we talked about how much we meant to each other, that we loved each other, and how we both didn't want it to end. It felt like the closest form of closure I'm gonna get. It truly felt real and it helped a lot.

I got to see my cats and my dogs, got to hang out with friends and family and eat way too much food. I got new clothes, new shoes, and a new viewpoint on my situation. I just really don't want to bother fighting anything anymore or being frustrated or upset at things. If you don't wanna sit next to me at lunch, then move. Let me have the good seat in front of the A/C. You wanna give me a dirty look and mutter under your breath? Wow, you sure are a big man there, friend. What a fun life you live, shit talking people like you're 10. I have a lot more things to do than wonder what you're saying. 

I'm down to two kittens, soon to be one, and mama still. But the two who went to new homes are thriving and happy and healthy. It feels good to see the final product of your hard work giving someone else the same joy it gave you.

I'm better able to control my classes now, even though it's only the first week. I'm able to redirect their energy as soon as they come in and I've not only put my foot down about discipline, I've basically thrown sandbags in front of me. I did a lot of prep work and don't take smack from any kids anymore, mine or otherwise.

I'm also trying my hand at making a Simpsons Bomb Game so hopefully that pans out. 

Good luck to everyone in this typhoon, stay dry~

Comments

  1. UnknownSeptember 20, 2018 at 11:20 PM

    I'm glad that you are back. It can be challenging living in a foreign country and working in an environment that is unpredictable. Teaching English in Korea can be very stressful. And some classes are just not easy to manage. It's just part of the life of teaching English in Korea. All the best with your life in Korea. I hope you can experience some positive sides of Korea, as there are lots of them.

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